Well you probably will have noticed my hiatus from the blog in the past month.
A Thousand Apologies!!
This is supposed to be about life and how we all get through rough times and good times and most importantly the times in between…
Well this past month has been an emotional roller coaster and has been hectic in so many ways it was hard to find time to breathe, let alone sit down and get some thoughts together.
This past month I have really been thrown into my promotion, which in hindsight is a great accomplishment, but reality is; its a lot more work, its a lot more pressure and sometimes it beats your soul up a bit. You will be happy to know that I have risen from being batten and bruised by work-things and am making my way through the paperwork, through the communication battles and really finding my grove. WHEW!!
Just in time time to explain how I have been getting on with my third resolution of paying off debt in a realistic manner… ( the promotion helps, but not that much haha)
If I am being honest I may have fallen off this horse a time or two in the past few weeks. I bought a new car ( so excited!) which created more debt. To increase my credit score to apply for that loan, I quickly fell into old patterns of paying all of my credit cards with my savings. On top of that, we had a trip planned for this month which re-racked up those newly paid off cards. The vicious cycle has returned and I am back to square one again. With all that being said, I am more aware of what I am doing and where my money is going. I was able to obtain another car loan even with the credit score I was so worried about, which really gave me that boost of confidence to succeed, and to keep at this resolution.
All in all, I have basically learned that this may be my biggest undertaking on the resolution list. It is a lot harder for me than I thought it would be and it is constantly going to be there. It may not be a learning curve, more of a constant struggle between my need for organization and clean records and my need to treat myself for my hard work. Its all too easy to write a list or make some rules, but its a whole other monster trying to follow them. Life gets Hectic, life gets in the way, or makes your plan take a little detour. I am learning that sometimes the plan is to dive in and find your way out. And that’s okay. I have always thought that money was one thing that was so easy. In my mind you made X you spent Y and X should always be greater than Y. Life isn’t like that, sometimes you make X, you spend Y and then you some how need W, V, L and P, and each of those has a payment plan that fits under X ( maybe..). Also I suck at math so I can ABC here all day and I will have no idea what it all means ( this sentence really made me giggle.. HEYO!)
This post may have been a ramble, a very confused string of conscious thought. What can I say other than this month has been a mess for me, but I am still here, I am still smiling, driving a new car which I still haven’t named, and I am walking around in a brand new outfit that makes me feel like a million dollars even if I carry a net worth of $36. I think I will come back to this resolution time and time again and hopefully I learn something from my mistakes, or at minimum keep trying to sort them out.
Hopefully this gives you a little reminder to never take your situation too seriously and to know that life takes care of you even when you think it isn’t. If you keep trying at something one day you will accomplish it, and every day in between is a step in the right direction.
Good luck with your money struggles, and remember it doesn’t all need to get done today, a day, a month, a year or more all makes a big difference from where we are now to where we will be then.
P.s. a big thanks to my loved ones who listened to me when I was in the middle of the hectic tornado, you really make me feel like I have it figured out, even when I know I don’t. I know you are reading this, because that’s the kind of supporter you are 😛